I’m Not Coming

A migraine. I didn't have a migraine, per say. I refused the casino lights, the loud music, the alcohol. Things a migraine can't handle. But I couldn't get out of bed, so please don't hate me. 2:10pm text: pleaseeeeee come 4:02pm text: do you think you'll come? 4:50pm text: I wish you'd come, we all…

I did this today

I wanted to smash my scale in 2014, but I couldn't let go of the security I found in knowing the next time I needed to be validated, I could step on the unforgiving surface and be reassured of my worth with every ounce lost. I remarkably, sincerely, unequivocally needed that validation. So much so…

Mistake #63718373837

This weekend I paused enough to play. I didn't just watch my little ones play or say "I'll play when I'm done with ..." and then never get around to being done. I really played with them. For hours across the last 3 days. I realized in those moments I love being their mom. I…