Feeling Hard

PC: @notesfromyourtherapist Yesterday when I walked into therapy, my body could barely wait to get through the door to start feeling everything I'd been holding onto over the weekend. As soon as I sat down on the floor, weighted blanket covering my body, tears flooded. I felt relieved it wouldn't take 45 minutes to get…

24 July 2020, 12:42PM

"I'm going to yell." My therapist says, warning me and trying to give me the opportunity to do the same. "No! Please don't!" I am pleading, because fear has taken over my entire body. I entered angry. So angry. It's a wildfire burning through each cell, attempting to escape but my skin is cement --…

You’re Losing Me

The child in me feels neglected. I am suddenly not interested in getting back to safety. Maybe because I’m not sure where safety is. As a child I used to go searching for spots of safety outside and that’s exactly what I’ve found myself doing the last couple days. The search was futile and just…

A 5-year-old & Her Therapist

I gain healing when I am able to recognize and embrace the inner child parts of me that feel hurt or sad or angry and receive love in return to letting those emotions and child-state be known. I feel warm, open, willing, enthusiastic, and so hopeful I will keep healing. I kept eating and reached…

Remember This

“Can you just give me a hug?” I say as I bring my knees to my chest and wrap my arms around my shins. I feel tears coming. I feel scared. I feel grief taking over my body. I feel anxiety. Sometimes, anger and frustration. What I can’t feel is where I begin and end.…