Restoring All of Me

“God will never stop loving you. I will never stop loving you.” The conditional love I have for myself is fragile. Wavering. Sometimes absent. Mostly absent. What, exactly, did I ever do to not deserve love from and for myself? My mother said if I ever wondered what I was like as a child I…

Grace, again.

Maybe I can give myself some grace for being in a season of change. Change is hard even if it's positive. Sure, this season is agonizingly longer than winter, spring, summer, and fall combined but I'm doing something powerful for myself that is literally saving my life. If I hadn't had the courage to take…

Void

Therapy put me back in my body, but I left hours later at the sight of my stomach. Sweet, sweet 2-year-old kisses and 4-year-old hugs put me back in my body, until nap time happened and silence ensued. Reaching out put me back in my body long enough to eat a lunch that was practically…