Divorce

I made it past the 4-month mark. Anorexia hates me but I’m totally (I mean, mostly, most days) fine with filing for divorce from her. Honestly, I don’t need her anymore. I don’t need her abuse or her comfort. Instead, I need to keep letting tears come for little-me. Without Anorexia hanging around, little-me gets…

Meet Me Here

This is how I will get a peaceful relationship with exercise. This is a part of how I will find peace within myself. This is how I will connect with my body and find moments of presence. This is how I will feed the good wolf. I ran 3 miles this morning after taking 15…

Quiet After The Storm

The dust settled. Over 102 miles, 5 hours, lunch, 2 houses, 2 schools, 1 track and field, and a frozen yogurt later: I feel sure I am supposed to be alive. Just 4 months ago I was writing suicide letters to loved ones. “Dear [therapist name],” I started, but never could finish that one. Tears…

Marriage

We are better when we are on our own. We are better when we can only rely on each other. Better when we are traveling. Better on the road, on the fly, on foreign land. Something about coming together to figure shit out, knowing which person has strength in figuring out the metro quickly and…

Grace, again.

Maybe I can give myself some grace for being in a season of change. Change is hard even if it's positive. Sure, this season is agonizingly longer than winter, spring, summer, and fall combined but I'm doing something powerful for myself that is literally saving my life. If I hadn't had the courage to take…