Little ups and big downs

Did you ever think about What makes you want to die After and despite a lovely day? A lively conversation All the connection you could hope for But as soon as you’re removed from joy As soon as You’re confronted with Yourself You want to die Why?

T h i r t y 4

It’s your birthday and you are thinking thinking thinking and driving aimlessly and stopping in the mall parking lot to scroll your phone because h o m e doesn’t seem like the best place to be on your birthday. You are loved, so loved, but the text messages and the social media posts fill up…

Done

I skipped dinner even though I picked it up even though it's just a salad and drank wine instead which felt right and the other thing that feels right is darkness velvet black no more light

She/Me/Five

Months ago I met a girl she is intuitive -ly sad -ly grief-stricken She is unabashed -ly feeling -ly loving She is joyful -ly showing up -ly determined Months ago I met a girl Intuitively, unabashedly, joyfully extending her hand out to the rest of herself letting all her parts be and exist fully even…

Panic Spiral Help

Sometimes words pour out sometimes, they get so stuck. Little-me is stuck so stuck with words. An empty stomach calms the panic that comes with stuck and I feel held by anorexia just thinking about a plan to let her in.