Stay a Little Longer in the Rain

"We're going home in August," he said in a matter-of-fact tone of voice. I spent the last forty months watching people come and go. Pack in, pack out. This is what everyone does. Now it was our turn. Except at month forty-three, he came home and said, "I'm not sure we're going to be moving…

dinner

"Does she eat now?" They laugh at dinner over their third helping of spaghetti at the busy bar and grill. Their banter continues and I suddenly feel as though I might puke at the thought of putting one more bite of baked penne pasta into my mouth. Their laughter is ignorant. Girls do not just…

It Ravages My Mind

Sometimes words multiply in my head and it all makes perfect sense to me. Even though the words are jumbled and spinning; they are correlating. I drift off easily and often write parts of journal entries in my head. Something is wrong in my head. I don't know the science of it. Evidence you ask?…

Time to falter

She thinks the bathroom smells like puke because there is mold growing somewhere. The mold is gone. There is definitely no more mold. I thought it would be rather obvious, given my history. But she continues to blame it on the mold that is not there and I continue to try to Drain-o and bleach…

I didn’t last

I was fine until they started talking about how much fat was in the calzones we had just consumed. I knew they were not the most healthy food in the world, but the second they started talking about it, panic set in. The familiarity of the actions made it easy. The shower, the drain, the…

what?

It is so strange to keep hearing the same thing over and over again, you're thin, and all I can do is tell myself they're lying. My brain refuses to agree and becomes confused every time something like this is said. I just don't get it. They can't all be lying. They can't all be…