I cannot understand what’s happening in my brain.
It doesn’t add up and it doesn’t make sense and it is so terrible that I can’t just stop the thoughts from flooding in.
I am a problem.
The problem has to go away.
I’ve started to wish for help from anyone that sees me, wishing they could just know what’s happening in my body and that it feels so out of control and that I feel so fearful (of what?) … of myself. I cannot grasp the chaos.
I cannot find safety.