“When you don’t know what’s true, retrace how it came to be. It started in your body. You felt it in your body first. Then words followed. And then your mind came in.”
My whole body hurts and I don’t have an appetite and every time I ate today, my stomach responded in disgust and anxiety with pain and fear radiating from my core.
I woke up with a migraine and it is still here, 15 hours later.
I approached myself with as much compassion and patience as I could muster, but I can’t help but wonder when these trauma waves will be over. When I do everything right, it’s like my body decides to capitalize on that and bring me down with more physical and emotional pain to work through.
I just don’t want to be in so much pain anymore.