Every single night with the out of control anxiety.
My chest walls barely contain my speeding heart, I can feel the pounding vibrate my head. Everything feels prickly and dying and at the same time feels wired and too alive.
My eye muscles hurt. Getting in the shower hurts. The water pressure against my skin makes me want to cry. My whole body feels like an explosion.
Just calm down!
Only makes all of it worse.
I think this anxiety is actually out of my control.