I feel frantic. I feel dizzy and nauseous and empty. My throat has a huge hole in it that feels devastatingly real. Jaw clenched—how else can I try to keep going?
I’m failing, I can’t breathe, I don’t know how to let this out/let it go/stop it/get back to the ground.
Then I saw this (below) and tried to remind myself of Grace. Really tried.
But I still feel like I’m going to pass out on account of anxiety. I still have too much to do to function like this. Nothing is helping.
I’m going to fail: I don’t want to fail: I can’t feel my body: nothing is connected: it’s not my fault: but it is my fault: I just need to help myself breathe: it’s so hard right now.
I’m sorry you are having such a bad time. It feels really bad when we know we have a lot of things to do and just can’t force ourselves function. It’s not failure though, you are not failing. Have you seen this list? https://depts.washington.edu/fammed/wp-content/uploads/2019/03/Katers-selfcare_printable.pdf
I use it when I’m in a really bad place, it helps me to have something simple to follow. Hugs if you want them. Don’t give up on yourself. You can do hard things.💗
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I love that list. Thank you for sharing it! I’m not giving up! 💗
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