Why do I feel defensive, anxious, angry, and fearful every time my phone rings and “dad” shows up on the screen?
Because I had to defend myself every single day of my childhood.
How come I can only freeze when I feel anger?
Because anger wasn’t allowed without major consequences.
Why does anger simultaneously bring out so much fear?
Because I never believed I could actually defend myself.
I’m frozen, angry, defenseless, & sad.