I have not felt this good in a long time.

All of a sudden I have an ounce of confidence. I had to stop myself from signing up for everything and starting a million different things that have been on the back burner for years.

I stopped out of fear I won’t feel this way long enough to make it through anything I commit to.

I almost feel high. Is this even happening? Do I actually feel this good?

And, why is it still hard to eat? I actually feel afraid if I eat (adequately) I won’t feel like this anymore.

All of the SNRI withdrawal symptoms I was having are gone except the brain zaps which make me feel like I’m not in real life or skipping pieces of life or… something very strange. But I don’t even care.

I’ve never taken an illegal drug in my life and haven’t even smoked a cigarette (so my only experience is with alcohol and caffeine) but I have some sort of high going on that I for sure don’t want to ever go away.

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