Sometimes when rain hits the ceiling
And you’re nowhere to be found,
I eat a peach and nothing else until you return.

Sometimes I wish for sun to turn to rain because I’m lost in chaos and it doesn’t make sense for light to shine.

Sometimes I want you to just get it without any words.

Even though,

none of this is who I want to be.

Even though,

All

Of

This

Is

My

Fault.

I’m loving and distant and confusing,

And I’m sorry times a million.

Sometimes I wish humans were birds and we could fly above the clouds.

Sometimes I pretend my brain hasn’t died and I can remember all the memories we’ve made,

Everything is shallow
And that makes me a horrible
Wife
Friend
Daughter
Sister
Niece
Cousin
Aunt.

Numbers flood in and I want to scream:

LEAVE!

But my black and white world is comfortable,

And it all settles in.

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