The pink part is hard to read, it says:

Eating disorder
Food
calories
purge
fat
body image
the scale!
skinny
thin
nutrition
anxiety
depression
negative self-talk
weight loss
lonely

It is crazy how much of my mind I think it takes up, even when I am physically “healthy.” It is actually extremely sad. What else could fill that space? What am I capable of that isn’t able to be exposed because I can’t figure out how to make that space available to something else?

I (think I) had a panic attack this morning at 4am. Scary, scary, scary. My chest felt tight all night and I couldn’t shut my mind off. Suddenly around 4am I felt like I was having a heart attack. I still feel nauseous.