The pink part is hard to read, it says:
It is crazy how much of my mind I think it takes up, even when I am physically “healthy.” It is actually extremely sad. What else could fill that space? What am I capable of that isn’t able to be exposed because I can’t figure out how to make that space available to something else?
I (think I) had a panic attack this morning at 4am. Scary, scary, scary. My chest felt tight all night and I couldn’t shut my mind off. Suddenly around 4am I felt like I was having a heart attack. I still feel nauseous.