Emptiness fills my soul and I am proud. Walking through the forest faster, faster, faster. Every step is a calorie. I have eaten 1,549 calories today. That seems normal. Nothing is wrong with me. Burned away mostly by being alive.  I weigh 119.8. I am 5’5. I have a Metabolic basal rate of 1,900. My blood pressure is 124/73. My pulse is 58. My BMI is 19.8. But all I can think about is losing weight. And eating food. And not eating food. And exercising. Obsession leaves no room for emotions. 

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