Last night I was 3 seconds away from gloriously making my way to the bathroom. Literally. And then I saw their car pull in. So I didn’t.
I am addicted just like everyone else is addicted. I need to go to AA meetings. I am kidding, but I am serious. It is NEVER EVER EVER going to GO AWAY completely. I am going to think about this for the rest of my life. I am going to fight this forever. I married it and it refuses to give me a divorce. Even when I think it is completely 110% gone out of my head, it survives. I’m not really sure how, but it does.
Eating disorders suck. Really bad.