I guess I will feel like I have failed if I do not find a job in the next few weeks.
It was my own goal, and those are the most difficult ones to let go.
I am thinking my degree is worthless. I feel inadequate, unintelligent, overlooked.
I don’t want to graduate anymore because that signifies the fact that I spent 3.5 years of schooling for nothing [if I still don’t have a job].
I can keep having a sense of humor about it and I will deal externally in this way, but inside I’m fucking panicking like nobodies business.
Everyone keeps saying it is going to work out… … … … … …
I am waiting…
waiting…
waiting…
still waiting..
and I want to give up. I won’t, because my pride is so high I’ll write cover letters until midnight on November 21st…
and then I’ll keep hoping…