Right now, I am afraid if I eat dinner, or eat something, I will start a night of continuous eating.

I haven’t eaten anything all day. I haven’t done that in a long time.

I keep trying to tell myself I am not hungry…but I am so hungry. I don’t even know what to make, it seems so daunting right now. I sort of just want to go to bed and not deal with it.

I want it to be ok, I want someone to just be like, Em, go eat dinner. But that would require me talking about this.
talk talk talk.

HOW can I go from being ok…to this.

so hungry. gah.