Why is it in my heart? What is so desirable about practice everyday and planning every single thing around practice and meets? Running in circles, painfully? Why do I feel like something is missing? It is only the first day of not going to practice…and I think I made the right decision, but I already miss it. Even though I hated it, at the same time I crave it.
Job searching is draining. I made the right decision. But I am kind of sad about it.