If I look at myself from outside of myself, I am not myself. I am insane-eating-disordered-head-case-not-myself-but-thinking-I-am-myself. This is normal. (no.)
Today I tried to go as long as possible without really eating and drinking a lot of coffee and water and exercising (cardio) for 75 minutes. Then I could not stand it any longer and ate dinner. And basically, a second dinner.
I am so ridiculously stupid. Really, I do know better.